What would my 30s be like?

Day 216 / 366

In about a month, I will be turning 30. And like the rest of my friends in the same boat, I am not too excited about it.

All my life I had plans and goals. I knew what sort of results I wanted to get in school. I knew which college I wanted to go to. I knew how much money I wanted to have in my bank at 25 years old. I knew that I wanted to start my own company before I was 30. All of those boxes have been ticked. But my mind just goes blank after 30. I have no plans for that stage of my life, and that makes me kinda scared.

The biggest fear I have is that even if I have the motivation to work towards my goals, I no longer have the energy that I used to have when I was young. Back in college, it was normal for me to skip a night’s sleep in order to get some work done. If I had tried to do that now, I would surely have fallen sick the next day. So this is like losing a useful tool from my toolbox. While I am trying to build a company at 30, I am competing with kids who are 20.

But on the plus side, while I lose some things, I gain some as well. I have way more experience than I had when I was 20. I can work smarter and make way less mistakes. If I do things right, I won’t have to have any sleepless nights, because I will be able to finish my work in time. I am financially more stable as well. I do not have to worry about money the way 20-year-old Pranav must have had to. I can take much more risks now.

At the end of the day, I know it's all psychological. It’s just a number, and the world won’t change drastically in just a day. If I have one goal for my 30s, it’s to be happy and content.