What if it all works out?

Day 107 / 366

Ever since I decided to start my own company, my emotions have oscillated between happiness and fear. Some days I feel happy that I am doing something that I have always felt was right for me. But most days, especially now, I am just afraid that none of it is going to work out.

Our brains (or maybe just mine, maybe you all are normal) are amazing at coming up with worst-case scenarios. I have thought of it all.

That I might never get a new project in this horrible market.

That I may soon run out of all my savings.

That I might never be able to get a job again after 2–3 years of failing at this.

That AI might take over and we will all be slaves in a few years.

The only ray of hope I have is when I look at other people who have taken similar risks and have succeeded. I got a chance to speak with a guy who started a marketing agency 15 years ago, and now is doing amazing work. Through that, I got a chance to look at the best-case scenario as well.

What if things actually do work out?

What if I build a great company, a great office, and a great team?

What if things go right instead of going wrong?

It’s a horrible feeling trying to work towards your goals without the hope of ever reaching them. That is how I have been feeling for the past couple of months. But today I got the hope back again. And it feels great.