Thoughts at 9 PM on a Wednesday

Day 115 / 366

I hardly slept a few hours yesterday. Earlier I would have easily made up for it by taking a few naps throughout the day, but now that I go to the office every day, that is out of the equation. And going to the office and running an office are two completely different things. I cannot take a day off, get there late or leave early.

So needless to say, I am sleep-deprived and in no shape to write a quality blog, so I am just going to dump all of my thoughts here for the next 5 minutes or so.

I get into a very weird state these days at night, where I am too tired and I want to sleep, but I just can't seem to fall asleep. I guess the term for that would be “Insomnia”. In the past, I could get through this by listening to podcasts, songs, guided meditation, or audiobooks. But none of that works for me these days.

I hope that if I can keep waking up early every day, my body will eventually get tired and fall asleep, and I will be able to get a nice 8–9 hour sleep. Right now, that seems like a distant dream.

No matter what happens, one thing’s for sure I am not going to dial anything down. I am not taking time off, or work less, or taking any shortcuts. I am in it for the fight, and I know that I am going to get out of whatever this is as a stronger person eventually. It sucks right now, but I am sure it will feel better later. It always does.

I used to believe when people said that 99% of all startups fail. I have a different point of view about it now. I think that 99% of all startups fail because the founders give up. The 1% that do succeed are the ones that keep going no matter how many times they fail. Perseverance is the biggest quality needed to make anything work in life. You just gotta keep showing up day after day, keep doing the good work.